While a very different option from many of the breast cancer survivors I have spoken to, I have opted not to do reconstruction at this time. I admire all of those women who have, and I appreciate their choices. But for me, it’s just not “logical”. My number one goal is to beat cancer (again), so I just want to get through my surgery. Heal. Get through chemo. Heal. And then make a decision in the future. I’ve heard too many stories of complications (not tons, but enough to make me cautious), including infections, rejection, and additional surgery as a result, so I’m in no hurry at this point in time. It doesn’t make sense to me to risk my recovery for the sake of vanity. (My Risk Management friends will be so happy to hear I did a risk analysis on this!) And again, that’s just me.
But who knows how I will feel when my “girls” are actually gone. How will I feel when I look in the mirror? Will I miss them? Will I have phantom pain like those who have lost limbs? Will I get annoyed with trying to find the right camouflage attire? Will I feel any less like me?
Or will it in some way be completely freeing (at least from the perspective of not worrying about a recurrence)? Not to mention no more mammograms! (Hey, there always has to be an up-side!)
Anyway, I will know soon enough, and there’s plenty of time to decide a future course of action, so stay tuned… “More to come” on that topic!
(For anyone who has gone through this and also opted NOT to reconstruct, I’d love to hear your thoughts on the subject!)